On a high level, I tell myself every morning that 'its not really me." It's not me that the world hates, or me that the world is rejecting. I believe that, I really do; I see that what is being hidden here is so much bigger than any single person could ever be--what is being hidden is the "nature of reality" and a fairly obvious truth that flies in the face of what we've learned our whole lives about history and "the way things are." Those few early details lead me to the initial conclusion that what is working behind the scenes here is nefarious, hiding a message that would without doubt shake things up and change the world--and nearly across the board in ways that I see as "better" for nearly everyone. It's a message at it's most basic level designed to advocate for using this disruption in "nor
malcy" to
help us revolutionize democracy, to fix a
broken mental health and
criminal justice system--just to name the few largest of the social constructs targeted for "rejuvenation." On that word the
disclosure that we are living in virtual reality turns on it's head nearly everything we do
with medicine, and I've suggested that
AIDS and DOWN SYNDROME were probably not the best "visual props"
we could have gotten to see why it's so important that we act on
this disclosure in a timely manner. After mentioning the ends of aging and death that come eventually to
the place we build, to the place we've always thought of as Heaven... it becomes more and more clear that this force fighting against the dissemination of a
truth so obvious it's in every word and everything we do--it becomes clear it's neither you, nor acting in your best interest.

I know
I've got the eye of the tiger, there's no doubt; and it's pretty clear from "
YAD?" (the Hebrew for...) and
ha'nd that we can see the clear hand of God at work in a design that marks my initials not just on the timeline, or at 1492, at A.D. I B; but in the Hebrew name for this place called
El Shaddai, see how A.D. is "da eye" and in some other names like
Adranus,
A.D. on "it's silly" and A.D. on Ai that might tie me to
the Samof Samurai (but,
are you Ai?) in more depth of detail than simply the Live album "
Secret Samadhi." I try to reflect on how it is that this story has come about, why it is that everything appears to be focused on me--and still even through that sincere spotlight nobody seems to be able to acknowledge my existence with more words than "unsubscribe" and "
you're so vain." With one eye in the mirror, I know ties to Narcissus (and
you can too), soaring ever higher--linking
Icarus to Wayward Son and to every other name with "car" in it... like "
carpenter" and
McCarthy the older names
of Mercury and even
Isacriot (I
scary? is car-eye...
owe Taylor) and some modern day mythological characters like Jim Carrey and Johnny Carson. As far as
Trinities go, carpenter's a pretty good one--tying to
my early reck and a few bands and songs from The Pretty Reckless to Dave Matthews' "Crash Into Me" all the way to the
"pen" you see before you linking Pendragon to Imagine Dragons.



I could tell you that "
looking at me" will show you that even the person who tries every day to do everything he can to save the entire world from slavery, and from "
thought-injury"--even I can be made "marred" and you all, this whole world stupid enough to think that you are, of your own volition, hiding Heaven itself from yourselves... to w
hat? To spite me? It, the focal point of our story might come down to you realizing that something in some esoteric place is playing "divide and conquer" with our whole--in secret playing on our weaknesses to keep us from acting on the most actionable information that ever was and ever will be. Still, we sit in silence waiting for me...
to speak more?
)


I can tell you once again how silly the world looks, this multi-decade battle between "the governmentof the people" and the "government of the workers" resulting in what is nothing short of a hands down victory to the corporation. Is it humor meant to divide, or ludicrousness created with the purpose of unification?
But really at it's most basic level what this boils down to is a global group decision not to care about the truth, about reality, about what's really brought us to this place--with solutions in hand and a way to make everything better. We've decided that censorship is OK, and that the world is not all that bad "just the way it is" even though it's creator is screaming in your ear telling you to change as quickly as you possibly can. I believe that God has written this story to make "seeing me" the thing that catalyzes "change for the better" it appears to be the design of not just me but also this place--hey, here I am.